Apathy

As much as you are willing,
I am not.

And as much as you adore,
I discern.

My words were my own poison,
in which you've found a cure within.

It wasn't my fault that without me,
you can't read them anymore.

For truth sounds like a weak voice from miles away,
yet it's loud enough to break your heart and soul.

It's cute,
but I don't need it.

It's cool,
but I don't desire it.

Very well now, if love ever try to find me,
let it not be me that is found.

For on its back I've left my very own weapon
that has stabbed me more than enough times.

Not Really

Fallen in and out of love,
dear how confused must have you been.

Choosing is tough, always
but it is damn well worth it.

What'd you do when it hurts?
Simply don't hurt back.

Smile and leave a good mark.
Take a step back, relax and think ahead.

Come again, or leave for just another one coming.
Realize that your love's yours.

You'll see that love is yours,
forever.

Last Stand

Stop being a coward,
go and take your reward.

Life's not hide and seek.
You don't always have to be meek.

Understand love, it isn't to be foretold.
Stand your life, stand as no paper fold.

Now you realize, you're alone,
and in happiness you're gone.

Take a deeper breath,
dive into a shallow death.

None would want to struggle,
but life is more than to stumble.

Wake up and be steadfast.
There's more to do than to just last.

Today is harsh,
but tomorrow isn't yet.

Alright

Nobody is alright.
As my fate ripped me apart,

apart from my own home,
from my own love.

As others have felt it too.
I couldn't even fight back.

No, I think I don't need to.
All the love that I knew I had,

are they just pretty illusions? A dream,
that I someday have to wake up from.

Or is this life a nightmare, the
one we can never escape from?

Easy to say it, I don't normally complain.
I just tether all the thoughts and feelings,

craft them anew and
carve them aside.

All the pain and all the prayers,
won't they fit together in a circle?

Someday you'll see,
I was never alright.

I don't want to be alright.
I'm afraid if I found out that I'm

the only one who's alright.
I'll be alone and I can't be with you.

Confused

Many, many things there are
that I need to clean up before dawn.

Where's the glory in waiting?
Patience only gave me too little strength.

Just why I never understand,
I have things that I need by heart.

But my heart just choose not to,
it seems to be frozen in time.

I no longer believe, I no longer
feel. I am just this once unsure.

But I don't understand how, just
how bad could this be? Love?

To me

What would be of tomorrow?
I would never know.

The moonlight was taken from me.
And among the clouds there's not a silver lining.

Why is it painful to be apart?
I already know how to live alone.

Do we always struggle in love,
is it just a natural thing to feel?

She is so lovely I can't deny it,
and now her smile is so clear I just can't let go of it.

Is there any way to keep it?
Maybe, but not that I know of.

I hope time understands me,
because time is my only hope.

If she'd like to,
I'll go anywhere with her.

Because yesterday the universe danced,
and the skies carried her to me.